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2012-02-07T23:24:00.004+08:00

I had a sudden outburst of tears.

It came from no where and I can't control it.

Have history resit paper in less than 2 days and I am just so not prepared. This is too much.

Everything else can wait. Does it?

2012-02-04T22:39:00.000+08:00

I have been thinking about something that someone told me days ago. There are some truth in the words, but I still don't get it.

Some people say, "Just follow your heart and everything will be well", but there are also some who will tell you that "The most important thing now is to do well in your exams and everything else can wait."

Well, actually, I'm stuck at the phrase where they said, "everything else can wait."

What do you mean? I can put those 'unimportant' stuff aside while I get my degree? But, I also know that when you lose a chance, it's never going to come back.

In another point of view, "Make sure you know what is important for you and what is not. Prioritize. Make the right choice for the better future."

I'm sorry if anyone who is reading this don't get it. I'm writing in too many point of view. Because when I write something, my brain will think from another point of view that that made sense, and then when i wrote the 2nd point down, a 3rd point of view will be messing with my brain. I'm not delusional or anything, I'm just me. I think a lot of nonsense, and I day dream alot. Alrights, back to the story.

Well, the other day, someone told me that I should stop wasting my time going to concerts, and also other non-academic stuff that is deemed unimportant to them. And I am the sort of person that never believes that academics will bring you far in life, and 'play' is more important. You see, we never know how long more do we have to live in this world. An average person may live up to 60, 70 or even 80 years, but there are also some people who passes on in their 20s, 30s due to various reasons.

I dont want to be like the people who has regrets in life. I want to be able to eat the food that I want to eat, and experience new things when I have the chance. I also have some obsessions, like a famous singer, actor, etc.

Back to the point.. The thing that make me ponder for so many ion days is that 'everything else can wait' phrase. Oh how many times I had said that in life, but reality is, not everything can wait. It felt like telling those people, "Our friendship can wait."

Seriously, my experience tells me that nothing waits. If you miss this one chance, then you missed it already. Second chances may or may not come. Also, you don't want to grow old and tell our grandchildren that you had spent your life waiting and missing out on life because something else is more important right? The something else that is important to you now may not be important at that time already. So? You missed out on creating memories that could be treasured just because you waited for the next chance to come.

Having said that, I hate it when people say, "There's always next time." If you give it a shot and you say that, then it's ok but if you don't do anything and you say that, I will begin to dislike you.

Ps: there's so much more things that I had wanted to write, but then, i took a break and went to do my laundry and when i came back i forgot what i had wanted to say and that is why.... this post is so confusing and doesnt make sense. if anyone's reading lah. but i doubt it. see, im talking to myself again.

I had a bad day - Road Bully

2012-01-20T15:03:00.000+08:00

This few days feels like theres a huge dark cloud shadowing me... following me around, everywhere i go.

just this afternoon, i got bullied on road by a taxi driver on rage.
too bad i was so angry that i forgot to take down his car number.

he actually stopped in the middle of the road, and when i go to the other lane, he tried to cut in again...
and then he hurled abuse words towards me..

WTF did i do?
I think he's on PMS!

FML totally spoilt my already-bad-mood.
I dont know why but life sucks recently.

the road bully was one of the worse.

thank God someone was in the car with me to cool me down, if not there will be drama on the road edi...
I'll go buy blade tmrw and keep in my car in case this kind of thing happen again.

anyway anyhow, this whole day hasnt been good to me, from the moment i wake up till now.
u say lah, went to subway 2nd time this week, and both times, my cups were leaking.

and it only happened to me.
my friend who ordered before me had a non-leaking cup.
u say lah, what is this.... go both times, both times also get leaking cup. tsk tsk tsk...

i just hope all this #darkclouds thing will end when the Rabbit year ends... or, should i mandi bunga first?

Rant

2011-12-13T18:20:00.001+08:00

ARGH!! I need to let this out!

feels like a volcano waiting to erupt. may end up scolding someone, anyone if i dont say this out here.

went into exam hall this morning feeling prepared to take on the battle. sat down, waited for the invigilators instructions, open the exam question booklet and WTF I DIDNTKNOWANYTHING~!

seriously, there is 13 questions, and i only knew how to do 1. and that is the essay question. alright, so i looked, and looked, and think very hard for answers, but nothing seems to come to my mind...

gave up and came out the exam hall early.

WTF I HAVE NEVER EVER BEEN SO... STUPID. NEVER EVER.
EVEN IF I DIDNT KNOW HOW TO DO ANY QUESTIONS, USUALLY I AM ABLE TO AT LEAST CRAP AND ANSWER ALL THE QUESTIONS.

BUT TODAY, I DIDNT. I JUST SIMPLY LEAVE IT BLANK AND WALKED OUT WTF IS WRONG WITH ME? THE THING IS...
I WASNT ANGRY OR SAD WITH MYSELF, OR DISAPPOINTED, IM JUST FEELING NEUTRAL. I CAME HOME AND FELL ASLEEP.

its like i felt numb already to all the negativity. i wasnt happy, but i wasnt extremely sad either.
i feel like giving up on life already. i just made my already-low cgpa even lower. fml to the max.
can i just give up studying already? clearly books and lectures are not my cup of tea, fuck the mindset that every1 needs to acquire higher education to have success in life. never believed that.

damnit i seriously dont know what the fuck is wrong with me...
the hsemate just said dun be sad.. and the problem is.. im not even sad...
i just dont want to talk to anyone and if i talked to you pls dont 'step on my tail' or i will bite you.

im stupid and i know it.
go. away.

piece of shit

2011-11-08T01:52:00.000+08:00

And so, I have decided.

This blog holds memories from the past and there is no way i'm going to delete it. But I'll be blogging on the other blog mainly on sharing information such as what did i do, what did i eat, what did i see, where i went...(etc)

And on this dead blog, I will be updating on the other side of my life. The ranting side. The side where always complains about everything under the sun and the moon. btw, I have yet to think of a suitable title for the other blog lol...

Hehe... And so you have been informed. LOL i dun even think there's a single soul visiting this blog anymore...

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on the other hand,

I just got back my thesis proposal result and i have minor ammendments which means that i can just start with my thesis if i wanted to. BUT when i went to see my supervisor, she told me that there is nothing wrong with my propopsal. HOWEVER, *jeng, jeng, jeng* the whole thing is a piece of shit and is not a 3rd year standard and if i carry on doing then i MIGHT (have high chance) to fail my thesis which means that i will screw my 3 years of studying.. wtf?!

Alright, i know i stupid, but wtf?! I also know its my fault for choosing such a complicated topic. already know myself not that smart edi, still want to choose such difficult topic. find trouble, cari pasal.. dunno what to say...

Will be wasting more weekends on doing this piece of shit lor... ok my thesis is my new born baby, its not a piece of shit.. but i am so tired already.. haihhhh

Is Giving Up So Easy?

2011-09-14T00:27:00.000+08:00

I am not the kind of person that handles stress well. Just last week, I almost gave up on TWO years of hard work. Literally giving up. I was feeling so down, and my future seems bleak. I can see nothing, but darkness. I thought I was at the end of my two years journey already. Another year to go and I am graduating. The thoughts of giving up is so strong that I would actually do it already, but friends have been encouraging me for moving forward.

I wasn't joking when I said I wanted to give up. Nope, not at all. I was pretty damn serious about it. But, the thing is, how can I have the heart to tell my parents who has been funding my studies? We are not rich, and my fees are not cheap, but they have been paying the fees every semester. How can I tell my mum that her daughter wants to give up because she is not confident at all? How can I have the heart to break the news to them that the fees they have been paying all this while will go down the drain because their daughter is a quitter?

Tears fell when I thought of that. There are many times when I talked to my mum over the phone, but I just can do it. I just can't let them down like that. As if I have not let them down enough. As if I'm not enough of a failure. Only my friends knew that I would want to give up. I spent weeks thinking long and hard about the giving up part. Those times that I was supposed to study for my failed papers, I spent it all on thinking, and thinking, instead of actually studying.

I even delayed the payment of the new semester because I had actually planned to give it all up. But, how do i face the people that have put their hopes on me? I didn't do it.

The days leading to the resit exam are not easy too. I was feeling so 'emo' that I even had a plain black profile picture on Facebook. Nope, it's not because I wanted to not show my face, but I was feeling really down. Like the life is worthless. People who know me will know that Facebook is my life (because I'm oh-so lifeless in real life). I had even considered to deactivate my fb account once and for all (if only i could find that damn button). But yeah, I didnt do it cause, I couldn't find the button. *swt case*

Through my TWO long years journey, I have met with many challenges, but this is the biggest obstacle so far. The thought of giving up had never been so strong like this before. But I thought back to those moments that I wanted to give up previously, and think where will I be if I had really given up. I have no idea. But one thing I know is, I AM STILL HERE BECAUSE I CHOOSE TO FIGHT, I CHOOSE TO CARRY ON. I DIDN'T GIVE UP. I HAD A CHOICE, AND I DIDN'T DO IT.

Nope, I didn't give up the last time, so why should I this time?

There are moments in life where we met an obstacle or two, but everything happens for a reason. When you fall down, then stand up again. Or else you'll never learn. Standing back up is not easy, neither is giving up. So, just stand up for once.

For now, I am still waiting for results, but I hope things will be positive. *fingers crossed* Thank you all who have been with me through the darkest hour.

Yo!

2011-09-03T03:09:00.000+08:00

Just trying out the new blogger.com interface. Abit confusing for me right now. So plain... Need some getting used to...

Click (1) there to "Try the updated blogger interface".

Then it will turn to the page as below. Really, it's very different, and a bit confusing for me. Oh well, can always click (2) to "Switch back to the old interface". But when you click they will ask you for comments, as they are still trying to improve.

If you're too free then you can spend a few minutes with the comments and feedback, or can just click "Skip".

I realise that with the new interface, they do not bring you directly to a "Published" page where you can click view blog after publishing a post. It stays on the same page where you are composing the blogpost, which I think is oh-so-not convenient for me.

2011-08-31T03:11:00.000+08:00

I think I lose a little bit of weight,

but I cant be sure.

And I dont want to be sure.

2011-08-28T12:53:00.001+08:00

Dear tze,

Remember the time when you're stuck while doing assignment.. And the due date was so near its impossible to do anything..

Remember the time where you were so stressed up and giving up is the only thing you could think of?

The thought of giving up is so strong..

But guess what..

You made it through.

Fight, for another time. Fight like you never fought before.

Life is not fair, its up to you to change it.

:(

2011-08-26T01:43:00.000+08:00

life is tough these days.

especially this few days.

this is the toughest moment so far...

the journey in the past 2 years is not easy,

but i have made it so far,

and now, i might have to walking.

and choose another path.

should i?

i need answers.

i am tired,

i have no more energy to carry on,

but i have made it thru so far,

is it worth it?

i'm almost at the end of the journey.

but this rock is too huge for me.

too huge.

im seriously tired.

whats the use of crying,

answers don't flow out with the tears.

but i really cant take it anymore.

how?

i am such a big disappointment for everyone who cared.

im sorry.

i have betrayed ur trust.

if there is a hole,

i would hide and sulk there.

Crossroads

2011-08-24T09:08:00.000+08:00

If the crossroads in life is like the branches on the tree, then it would be a very interesting journey.

ż ђ ї ~ q أ ήg's photostream

2011-08-19T01:06:00.000+08:00

ż ђ ї ~ q أ ήg's photostream on Flickr.

:) some of the pictures i have taken thru the years, i'm still learning and improving... i know, it's not presentable, but show your support for a noobie? hehehe

e M o

2011-08-17T02:29:00.000+08:00

I have a confession to make.

Last month, when everyone went home for grandma's birthday, I stayed back with the excuse that I wanted to study for the exam. But, I was at a concert.

To clarify, I really did spend time studying, and that 3 hours at the concert is just a 'rest time'.

The sad part is, I broke my own promise thaat I will go home after exam to celebrate. I didnt.

Finally went back after almost 1.5 month... And grandma came to hug me as soon as she saw me. I didnt hug back because its awkward. Not our culture at all. First time she did this...

I feel bad... why did i have to neglect them so much?

and for them to say that they are old and probably dont have much time left, it's... not something that i want to hear. people leave, that i understand, but there is a part of me that believe that they will be there forever with me...

they will be there when i graduate, they will attend my ceremony. im not good with my studies, and they may not be the proudest grandparents around, but im sure they will attend.

they will be there when i start working, and i will earn enough money to take them to a holiday.

i will definitely be able to do that.

they will be strong enough to go places with me.. with my own salary!

when i am 30, 40, or 50 years old, they will still be there for me... i really want to believe they will... there is always somewhere i am able to go back to... a place where i feel the love and comfort... they will be there when i need a place to hide...

gosh, why am i doing this post again.. its so depressing...

I want to be able to spend more time with them...

But being 3rd year and internship and thesis...

im being such a bad granddaughter. fmyself.

Short Update

2011-08-09T03:07:00.000+08:00

I am currently editing pictures (adding watermark) for the Chicken Nest Bao post. It's 3.02am, and I am super hungry looking at the pictures. Zomgosh!! Anyway, sorry for the long delay, I took a while to procrastinate, and then when I finally decided I should start with the post, I then took two days to get the harddisk which is just on the table, another day to finally plug it in my computer, then an extra day to actually open the folders, and choose and copy the pictures, 1 day for the pictures to sit on the desktop as decorations, and finally, 1 day (I hope) to edit, and then God know how long I will take to start typing.

This short update should just end at the second sentence. Now everyone (who actually bothers to come to my blog) knows how much of a procrastinator I am.

LOL

2011-06-29T15:29:00.000+08:00

A leaves the main door to the apartment open, knowing that anything could happen.

B confronts A.

B: Hey, can you don't leave the door open like that? It has happen many times already and I am sick of closing the door for you. Do you know the potential danger if there is bad people? They might just come in and rob you.

A: Even if the door is locked, things still disappear in this house. I prefer to think that strangers came in to steal them than my housemates. *STARE AT B*

Life so Far

2011-06-28T23:07:00.001+08:00

Life's good I think. It could have been worse.

I am one year older, and had friends and family to celebrate with. What more can I ask for?

Definitely, life's good.

Studies not good tho. Need to work really really hard to get really really good result. And had some really really bad lecturers who demotivates me. So, I'm doomed. Hope I have the motivation to study... T___T

I Will Be 22 ...

2011-06-23T23:12:00.000+08:00

In an hour or less, I will be 22 years old.

I'm OLD!!!! *add drama*

A different kind of ice-cream?

2011-06-22T02:51:00.000+08:00

was out with parents today and I randomly showed mum where is Tutti Frutti, and the next thing I know, we're in the shop choosing flavours :D

had the guava, vanilla and also the original flavour. guava is kind of sour tho.. wanted death by chocolate but i had too much chocolate lately, so end up taking the other flavours.

I Have A New Site

2011-06-13T01:19:00.002+08:00

Hello friends,

I've been working on a new site for a while now, and I guess it's time to slowly move over. I have yet to decide to abandon this one, but I guess I will be maintaining both sites for now. Updates will be either here or there, so do check it out k.

Tze :)

Here is the new link : http://tzeeeching.blogspot.com/

Ps: Please to tell me if there is anything I can improve in terms of layout and pictures there k :) Thanks.

Darn!

2011-06-08T04:57:00.002+08:00

DAMN STRESSED ahhhhh~~~~

Cannot study!!!

gah

2011-06-06T01:55:00.000+08:00

i wake up one morning and replied one message with the word 'gah'.

from then on, i kept using it. i have no idea where it came from. :)

updates are scarce. i have a very busy student life. everything seems to happen at the same time, and the feeling of giving up is there. i am very close to give up last week, but i hang on, and i hope i pass. *fingers crossed*

2011-05-31T20:26:00.002+08:00

it's for your own good...

i desperately want my facebook back.

2011-05-31T19:17:00.001+08:00

i have never been procrastinating this much.

today is supposedly the due date,

but it was extended to tomorrow.

i. just. cant. do. it.

~~fml.~~

Making Decisions

2011-05-26T11:35:00.000+08:00

I don't know about you, but i truly dislike making decisions. Even simple choices like want to eat this or that is difficult for me to decide. first because its food and i generally love food and that made making decision harder, and second, i just cant decide.

even for assignment, although i have alot of time to finish it, but i still wait till the last minute because i simply cannot decide on which topic to do. this is what happens when there are choices. having choices is a good thing, but for me, its just like a nightmare to me...

i hate it when people ask me to think of what to eat (which happens all the time when im at home), because i just cant think on the spot and tell u the answer. o.o maybe thats why i have only a few 'favourite' places only. because i dun like to think and make decision and i just end up going to places that i know and is convenient. O.o

busy

2011-05-25T22:09:00.000+08:00

busy, very busy, super busy.
let's see...

i have papers due on 27th May, then in June, 1, 8,9,10, working on 12th, 13, and 29.
had quiz today which i din do well in because i had no time at all to study... :(

#1 Testing

2011-05-22T23:21:00.000+08:00

hello, test, test ,test.

Click here for older posts....

Should I move?

2011-05-18T04:48:00.000+08:00

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Short Note: Versi Bahasa Malaysia di atas, scroll down for English version xD
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ada sesuatu yang aku tidak faham. ada juga sepekara yang menggatal dalam mindaku.

pertama, mengapa langit biru? ok ok mungkin itu bukan perkara yang aku tengah fikir, tetapi, aku dah lupa apa yang aku tak faham.

kedua, perkara yang menggatal dalam mindaku. sebagaimana yang anda tahu, (ok mungkin anda yang membaca ini tidak tahu, tapi mereka yang mengikuti blog boring saya ini mungkin tahu) blog ini dah lama. dah tua. dah bertahun-tahun aku blog di alamat ini. inilah blog aku yang pertamaaaaa sekali. aku buka blog ini masa form 3, pastu aku lompat ke tempat yang lain, buka blog-blog yang baru, banyak juga yang aku tulis dalam blog semua tu, tapi sekarang memang dah tak ada lagi. tinggal yang ni jer.. aku pernah blog di wretch, friendster, xanga, ahh wordpress, ada laman apa lagi ye? dah lupa dah, tapi i ingatlah, lebih dari 1 yang i ada. lompat sini, lompat sana. lompat hingga blog ini aku lupai. tetapi, tiba tiba, blogger.com hantar aku email pulak, suruh aku claim balik blog aku yang ketinggallan ni, so aku pun baliklah sini dan menetap. dah lapan tahun usia blog ini... tapi tu i kira dari masa buka blog... yang betul2 aku balik blog kat sini mungkin 4 atau 5 tahun jer...

tapi, 4 tahun ke, 5 tahun ke, agak panjang juga tempoh masanya.. baangkanlah, kalau ada anak, sudah masuk tadika.. kalau blog ini anak i, dah masuk tahun 2 kat sekolah dah. dah lapan tahun beb! cepatnya masa berlalu ni.

ok dah cakap panjang panjang, apa yang menggatal dalam mindaku in ye? alright, sekarang aku nak kata dah...

blog ni kesayangan i, tapi, manusia harus memandang ke depan, so i fikirlah, patut ke i pindah blog? buka blog yang baru, dengan konsep yang baru, design yang fresh sikit, nama yang baru, dan menetap di sana. i tak kata nak tutup blog ni. yang ni anak pertama i, yang baru tu macam pindah ke rumah pertama pulak.

apa komen anda? patut ke?

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I am so sorry I have to blog in broken Malay language. This is how long I am away from school (not that my malay in school is very well, hmmm maybe it’s this standard too). Well, I hope you have stayed long enough to see the English version. For those who don’t read malay, hehe.

“There is something that I don’t understand. There is also something bothering me.

First, why is the sky blue? Ok maybe that’s not what I was thinking, but, I hhave already forgotten what I don’t understand.

Secondly, the thing that has been bothering me. As you know, (ok maybe you don’t know, but those who have been following me over all these years might know) that this blog is quite old. Its been years I have been blogging at this address. This is my first ever blog. I had this blog when I was in Form 3, and then I just end up at other blogsites, opening many new ones, and I had also been blogging at those sites a lot, but now there’s no more. This is the only one left. I have blogged in Wretch, Friendster, Xanga, ahhh Wordpress, and what other sites are there? I cannot remember, but I do remember, I own more than 1 blog. I have been hopping around different blogsites that I totally forgot about this blog. However, out of a sudden, blogger.com sent me an email to claim back my already-forgotten blog, and so I came back and stayed till now. It’s been 8 years this blog. But I calculated that from the time I had this blog. The time that I really posted is just 4 or 5 years only.

But! No matter its 4 years or 5 years, it is quite a long time. Just imagine, if I had a child, he or she is already in kindergarten. If this blog is my child, he or she is already in Standard 2. It has been EIGHT years baby! How fast time flies.

Ok, I have been very long winded. So what’s been bothering me? Alright, now I will spill…

This blog is my love, but, we have to step forward and look ahead. So, I was just thinking, should I move now? Open a new blog, with new concept, a fresh design, a new name, and just stay there. I am not closing this one, this is like my first child. The new blog is like moving to a new home.

So what do you think? Should I?"

The dinner tonight

2011-05-11T23:24:00.000+08:00

cough die me

2011-05-10T11:46:00.000+08:00

一個人生活

2011-05-05T00:49:00.000+08:00

This is one talented singer. He may not look handsome, he is not average thin. But he is blessed with an awesome voice. A voice that will touch hearts.

BAD EXPERIENCE IN SS2 HAWKER CENTRE

2011-04-28T03:06:00.000+08:00

very angry!

went to eat at the small hawker centre at ss2, and was bombarded by the stall owners there before we even get to sit down WTF!

i already know what to eat, and i wasnt sure who is from which stall, so i didnt want to order. and i am serious when i say we were surrounded. like a riot going on there WTF.

i wanted to order from 1 stall, and there's this old man from another stall, which keep insisting us to eat from his stall. we didnt want to, and while they are still crowding us, one of my friend walked over to the preferred stall and ordered. WTFFFFF!

when the order came, the old man (which we didn't order from) walk past our table and said "you girls already kena tipu, pay so expensive". WALAOEHHHHH... My supposedly happy dinner became an unhappy one because of him wtf. if i ordered some cheaper food or drink i already fan toi ok! cibai now i got money, i feel rich i want to pay expensive cannot isit? ada kena mengena dengan kamu?

"HELLO, YOU FILTHY OLD MAN WITH NO MANNERS,
I AM OVER 21 YEARS OLD AND I DONT NEED YOU TO DECIDE WHAT SHOULD I EAT,
OR WHERE I ORDER FROM.

I HAVE MY OWN RIGHTS, AND I WILL STICK TO MY CHOICE,
BECAUSE I LIVE IN A DEMOCRATIC COUNTRY!

WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU, I DONT KNOW!"

and then, later we wanted to order char koay teow to tapao, and my fren again went to order from another stall. we didnt know the original stall we order from sells ckt too ok. shud have ordered together if we knew.

and then that filthy old man walk past again and said, "SIT SO NEAR MY STALL ALSO DIN ORDER FROM ME"

SERIOUSLY, WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THAT FILTHY OLD PERSON?
my fren say maybe he alrd nyanyuk (SO WHAT?)
nehlikong, seriously, if i have ordered air limau, or teh ais, there will be a drama there.

i dont mind making a scene.

spoil my mood and appetite, that chaocibai filthy old person.

曹格 Gary Chaw >Back In Control< Album Promo at Lowyat!

2011-04-20T20:38:00.001+08:00

This week has been a very GFC weekend. Spent Saturday night with GFC peeps and Sunday night again at Gary's promo tour. I get to know new people, and, I get to see Gary!!!!! Why didn't I join in their activities earlier??? Was kind of sick before Saturday, and it always gets worse when I came back at night. Coughed till 5am before i get to sleep :(

Anyways, GARY!

Started the journey at 3.30pm from Sunway Pyramid, fetching Phaik and her brother. I didn't want to go there alone and they are heading the same way, so we decided to go together. xD It's so boring in my car that both of them fell asleep. *Am i that boring?* T__T

Then went to Low Yat Plaza. First time I drive to KL during weekends. Was praying really hard for parking, and there's like very close chances, but missed all of them. Ended up parking in B5. Quite scary cause it's such a secluded place, but thankfully, there's 2 other people with me. Went to the lift and guess what we saw!! Gary's promo tour details on the lift door. It's on EVERY floor ok. No kidding, and, on BOTH the lifts. It's impossible the shoppers there can missed staring at Gary while waiting for the very slow lift. xD Unless they choose to go up using elevator which is faster, but imagine walking up from B5, and there's like 5 floors of walking past Gary's promo advert xD hehehehhe

Oh ya, MY FIRST TIME IN LOW YAT. why is it in caps? i dont know, just for the fun of it. xD

Walked around a little bit and then went outside and met Tracy. Followed him arnd for tickets hehehe. The organizers are preparing for the night, setting up stage, seats, banners, etc.

The emcee for CSL (the main organiser) booth already start to attract people at 4 something already; giving away goodies bag etc. hehe.

We wanted poster so we walked near and Tracy said we want poster. So he gave us poster and then later the goodie bag. I didn't open and see what's inside beause I thought it would be all papers and nothing else. Only when I sat down at cafe I realise there's a car phone holder. It's not expensive, and it's not cheap too. That's why till today i haven bought any. And, most important, don't need to buy edi xD

We got 50 tickets for the friend club. Zone A tickets... Although it's not the front row or anything, *the last row* still better cause we can sit down while waiting for the thing to start. xD

Didn't get much picture of the whole event because I was busy screaming and shouting and high-ing xD heheheh, and also because i have a very sucky camera and there are sooo many other people with nice camera and let them do their job xD I did try to take pictures with my camera but then, it's soooooo blur and sucky I can't post it here..

For a famous star like him, I expect it to start very late, but nooooo, it started a while past 7 which is considered early for Malaysian timing. He started the night with the song from his new album, 丑角, and two other songs from previous albums; 刮目相看 and 世界唯一的你. And, there were breaks in between songs for interview, games and interaction.

He is so nice that he came down the stage and walk all the way to the back to get closer with Zone B fans. xD

Where to get this kind of thoughtful celebrity? And, it's been a while since he come back and promote his album. So, double excitement for all GFC-ers and also all the fans that had been waiting for him.

Ok. Now let me tell you what is soooooo exciting about this promo. I GET TO BE ON STAGE WITH HIM. If you watch entertainment news, you might (or might not) seen me. I don't know because I got no TV. Hehe, GFCers sang birthday song on stage.

The cake is a big Number 5, which signifies that WE ARE FIVE YEARS OLD!!

And, GFC celebrates it's 5th anniversary. We're 5 years old. 5 years is not long, and its not short either. In this 5 years, I graduated from high school, graduated from pre-u, and now i am pursuing my dream and graduating from my degree program next year. Even a 5 year old baby can now walk, talk, run, scream, etc. *tears of joy* I wasn't with GFC previously. Only started to join their activities recently, why? because I shy. I hope for more 5 years ahead of us xD Hope to join in more GFC activities in the future!! XD If memory didn't fail me, I started in July 2006, almost 5 years ago. But only officially joined the club in 2008. And now it's 2011. xD

FYI: GFC is Gary Friend Club, not Gary Fan Club.

Ohya, during that night, he also announce that he is going to have his Sensation World Tour on July 16!!! Mark your calender!! xD I've marked mine....

If you have time, watch the video and spot me!! xD Now I can say, "Mummy, I'm on You Tube!!!" XD

P.S: I just found out that I have a paper on Monday the 18th!~!!!! This is sooooo unfair ok. Previous semesters we have papers everyday back to back and now! now that i have plan they become so nice and have 1 day break in between papers. [!!!] I have to come up with a new plan wtf. I must attend the concert and I cant screw another paper. ahhhhh timing is just sooo....

*whyyyyy does it have to always clash....* :(

P.P.S: if you are wondering why is this post so messy and the facts are so unorganised, then i'll tell you that i took 3 days writing this.. because i am oh-so-busy and this is a serioously long post. it was longer at first with more pictures, took out some of the pictures because it would take longer to write this. xD and if it gets any longer, i might have just give up writing and go stalk ppl on fb or something.

P.P.P.S: i must say, the organiser did a good job. good crowd control, and it seems like everything went smoothly that night.

:)

2011-04-19T10:57:00.000+08:00

stay tuned for a CHAW post.

i am still drafting it.

*omg super excited, scream and die of sorethroat*

BAD BAD WEEK

2011-04-13T04:05:00.000+08:00

ITS 4AM AND IM HERE BECAUSE I HAVE SOME BRAIN IN THE DICK HOUSEMATES. WTFUCK IS WRONG WITH THESE PPL????????????????? TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH I TELL YOU!

NOT ONLY HE BRINGS HIS FRIENDS HOME AT 3AM, THEY SLAM THE DOOR, AND I BELIEVE THAT ONE OF THEM EVEN KNOCKED ON OUT DOORS AND THEN HIDE SOMEWHERE. LIKE WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THESE IDIOTS?

NOT EVEN AN OUNCE OF CONSIDERATION LIKE WTF.

TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH....

JUST WAAAAAAAAAAYYYY TOO MUCH....

SERIOUSLY.

WHAT? I TOLERATED THEY BANGING THE MUSIC TILL 6AM ON WEEKENDS MEANS THEY CAN DO IT ON WEEKDAYS TOO?????

WTFFFF....

I HAVE SENT SMSES, SLAMMED THE TISSUE BOX TO THE WALL, AND STILL, THEY DONT GET THE MESSAGE....

WHAT THE HELL THESE MOTHERFUCKERS...

ME BEING NICE MEANS I CAN BE BULLIED? NEH LI KONGGGG.....

CIBAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII HAVE I NOT GONE THRU ENOUGH THIS WEEK????????

WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!

when boredom strikes in class

2011-04-03T00:26:00.002+08:00

this is what bored people do.

was in the class listening to lecture and then i lost interest. and started doing this. i should just leave the camera at home next time. :) last time, distractions come in the form of books (netbook and facebook) hehhehe...

and so i left the netbook at home and started bring notebook to write down points from lectures. hehe. but whyyyy, why do i play with the camera now in class? :(

i wonder if the lecturer realise... hmmmph

Tick, Tock...

2011-03-31T02:29:00.003+08:00

I sat in front of the computer and stare at the blank screen. Time to update the blog, but minutes pass and I still have no idea on what to write. “What to write? What to write?” Then, I gave up staring and proceed to do something that occupies most of my very little free time, Facebook.

I used to love writing. I used to be the one ‘blog crazy’ person among my friends. Well, I guess time, procrastination and workload caught up, and I left the blog unattended for months. Well, not exactly THAT long, I do come back to peek at it sometimes, and as I said, I left without writing. It feels like, I have already lost the passion to write, well, although I write in the most broken English you can ever imagine, it’s still writing. Yeah, you can criticize my use of English words, but I am no language expert here.

Writing provides a relief from stress, and it fills my time when I am bored. I have attempted in writing stories, but they were never complete. Thanks to my limited knowledge of vocabulary. For a very short period of time, I had dreamt of becoming a writer. But, I know it is not possible. I get brain jam when I am forced to write. Due dates are not my thing. Ideas don’t come when they needed to. I envy novelist, writers, story tellers because they can tell amazing stories, with simple words. I used to read a lot, and in my primary school days, I would get so engrossed in reading that I bring the book with me to the dining table. Yes, I was once a nerd who reads on the dining table while eating. And, when I have finished reading all the books, and do not have new ones, I would read those I have read before again. Just for the sake of reading. I guess that’s how I trained myself to read fast. Those books I read in primary school are those mystery books, which comes in series and I would buy all of them. Maybe I was the only granddaughter, daughter and niece in the family, so I get a little more pampered. J

One of my favourite columns in The Star newspaper is written by Mary Schneider (I don’t know how to pronounce her name!!). I have no idea since when, but I have always admired the way she writes. It’s so simple, but the way she carries the story line, I don’t know how to describe, it’s just so simple, but yet, so interesting and the readers are tempted to read more. Another favourite would be Alexandra Wong, also The Star columnist. But because I'm not home all the time, I don't get to read their columns as much already.

They write in a simple manner, but are able to interest people. J Just love their articles. <3

I shall grow-up and not rant here so much. xD

On the other side, there’s this IT fair in Monash this few days and was planning to go, but have to cancel because of work commitments and exams. But that’s ok cause I’m going Lowyat somewhere in mid April, so I may get it cheaper there. Something exciting is happening mid-April *muahahhahahha*. The schedule is so free, but I don’t know why I feel so ever busy. And, there’s this Nikon 10^th Anniversary event happening in MidValley, and I really want to go! Maybe I can sneak out a while there and then study. I promise to study ok!! Limit 2 hrs FB till after my exam, ok? :P

So, if you survived till the end of this post, you must be wondering, what is her damn point writing this pointless wordy post?

Well, you bet, I"M DAMN STRESSED!

suck suck suck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-03-30T00:12:00.002+08:00

had the most boring lecture today OMGOSH HOW TO SURVIVE FOR THE WHOLE SEMESTER YOU TELL MEEEEE!!!

it's not plain boring and monotonous, it's NONSENSE.
pure BULLSHIT!

YES,
it's nonsense from start to end.

AND,
the best part is, NO NOTES WTF.

yaya, i know we are uni students, finishing second year somemore, should learn to be more independent or whatever shit it is, BUT, HOW to prepare beforehand WITHOUT notes?

i know you will say, READ TEXTBOOK lah, stupid isit?

Lemme tell you something,
WHAT TO READ FROM TEXT BOOK?
GOT SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MANY things inside and the notes are not taken from ALL the topics and sections, so, WHICH TO READ?
I am busy enough, don't waste my time reading something that is not going to help me in any way.

Grrrrrr.........

The lecture today feels like so much air,
SAID soooooooo many things, but all DON'T make sense at all.

HELLOW!!!! MY GPA is at stake here!!!

i DON'T want to fail anymore subjects OKAY!!!

PLEASE, i want a better lecturer!!

T_______________________T

I miss the old one :(
why do they have to leave and then hire sucky lecturers like this?
*cry

it's the end of march omgosh!!

2011-03-28T21:06:00.002+08:00

Ain't they cute? Check out the white chick, stands out cause its so bright. hehehe. Pardon the picture quality, taken using my super low quality phone camera in a very low lighting place. :)

Went back hometown for 1 week, supposed to be back by Friday, but then i delayed till Sunday cause got award show on TV and end up not watching cause gary didn't go. lol.

Had the most boring-est 1 week ever. all i do is just sleep, eat, sleep, eat. no one's back too, so didn't go out or anything.

Today, is the start of the final semester in 2nd year. OMGosh time flies. Lots of journals to read, and things to memorise, and i feel soooooo sleepy already in the first class. cant imagine future classes. *Wish me luck!

:)

Howdy!

2011-03-19T02:19:00.002+08:00

Hellow people, anyone who still comes here, because even I don't come often anymore. I used to click on my own page several times a day even though there is no update or whatever, but now, I got so caught up with school and assignments, I don't even have time to write a proper post. Yes, procrastination too. hehe, procrastinating is soooooo ME.

Over the months (omgosh, thankfully its months, not years), hehehe, I have come to this create post page, but somehow, there is nothing to say. I don't know why because I never have nothing to say when I have the chance to crap.

Ok. What happen since December? *Need to dig back my memory, and the reason i have this blog is because my memory is a bit useless. Let's see what can I remember so far.

In December, I start paying my rent (yes, i moved out), I learn that there is something called stomach ulcer (yes, its terrible, someone in the family fainted while home alone and was under observation in hospital for ONE week), my parents at last tried and LOVED snowflakes (hehehehehhe), I started to moved my things out (and realised that its not an easy task), had 'pun choi' which is meant for 12 ppl (but only 6 of us went and the restaurant workers were amazed with our attendance because NO ONE EVER had so little ppl coming for 'pun choi'). I think that's all for december. The whole month was kinda of a semester break, so i was back at home with no internet and alot of hokkien dramas which i wont watch which means that i dont have tv also. yes, i spend 1 month rotting. like, stare at 4 walls kind of rot.

In 2011, i started a new semester, drove to and fro stw-teluk intan route 3 days a week (for almost 2 weeks), get paranoid when i drive cause SAMAN is EXPENSIVE, officially stayed in my new room (moved in to a condo full of males, was the only girl here for almost 2 months wtf right), thank God that my housemates are good people [ :) ], started and already ended a short semester, exams suck btw, had my first 40% weightage for 1 assignment, tasted coconut jelly for the first time (march 18), went to annual dinner for the first time willingly (march 10), agreed to go clubbing for the first time (afterparty for annual dinner)(oya i quite like it in there, i like loud music), saw a overly high electricity bill for the first time (RM650+ per month for electricity bill WTF), found out that paying bills is no fun, worked for the 2nd time in my life (march 15), FINALLY had a trip with some uni frens (I KNOW, my uni life very miserable, trips always tak jadi, this and that, sien oni), volunteered for open day (march 13), lose a friend or two here and there (let's just say we're not on the same page anymore, i've tried but failed), my kai loi is all grown up, realised that I SUCK in photography (not to say i have good skills previously, but now, i totally forgot how to manage the camera wtf right), WENT TO couple seat cinema and watched the entire movie ALONE (so sad to be still bf-less T_______T), had a very boring cny (almost could see gary in person at ipoh, stadiuminderamulia, but then i didnt drive there so i couldnt stay to wait for him to appear *sad betul ok*), ...

*urgh seriously cannot remember!!! mymemory fails me...

nice or not? nice ma? nice anot? cantik tak?

bought this during my trip to melaka with shadow, june and shadow sister. hehehehhehehe...

it was there and i knew i HAD to get it because i am a nikon freak.

sekian, terima kasih

...

2011-02-19T09:24:00.002+08:00

i'm so sorry bloggie sayang, i have abandoned you for so long.
i have always wondered why my seniors all disappeared when they leave high school.
the reason they give is that they are really really busy with life in college or uni.

yes, i finally understand. i am having short semester and that means we have our subjects packed into only 7 weeks of lectures and then EXAM! hello, come on, by week 7, most of us are only still warming up to the subjects, and why the hell are Exams here??????

i have assignments due this monday. and have yet to start writing. i dont know what's wrong with me its jsut that im so overly stress, i cant feel the stresss... haissss....

so stress that im starting to have diarrhea.. :(

+ U

left brain

2011-02-18T03:23:00.001+08:00

the left side of your brain.

V-day

2011-02-14T16:53:00.002+08:00

i totally forgot today is V-day.

Got this V-day muffin from a friend. :) thank yous

On the other hand,
Where, where is my valentine?

hello, blog

2011-01-31T02:45:00.003+08:00

It's been a while since i've blogged. I don't know what to post... Missed my blog alot tho...hehe... Tonight is quite a drama night since i've moved here. first, woke up at 2pm, and it's raining quite heavily... went to my friend's room, she baked bread. and on our way our delivering bread to another friend, her phone fell apart and the battery fell into the drain ... WTF moment right there... lucky guard was helpful tho :) hehehe

Pay Saman, 50% discount

2010-12-10T10:40:00.000+08:00

I went to queue up at the police station in my hometown to pay fine. and the que is sibeh long because of the 50% discount. actually i also don't know when will i pay if there's no 50%... i had overdued fines because I DID NOT GET ANY frigging notification or letter from them! NONE at all okeh... i have to actually stand, and i mean S T A N D there for more than 2 hours jsut to get to the counter. despite the amount of humans waiting there, there's only 1 counter. ONE! but the good thing is they din have a lunch break. mayb a short 1 because i recall standing in one spot for a very long time..

this is half the line. theres more ppl at the back.

while waiting, i read a book... yes, i brought a book there cause i expect a q... and there is a q, so i took out thebook and read but the uncle behind me was quite noisy so i got bored and didnt know what was i reading. so i took out my walkman... because the songs in the walkman were loud, i din hear by super loud phone ringing and the people arnd me were staring at me like im a weirdo...

so after a while i just took off the walkman and kept the book, and waited. nothing to do,so i took out the camera to take pics. hehehehehehe im such a gadgetty person.

finally reachng!!

the lovely scenery at where i was standing the longest.

ps:

is the title wrong? like is the notice in english or malay?

trafik is malay
and cops is english.

isnt it supposed to be trafik kops?
or traffic cops?

Gary Chaw 曹格 "Back in Control" Press Conference

2010-12-09T09:07:00.001+08:00

it's been a while since i need to upload the pictures multiple times.

Last week, I just had the most hectic exam timetable ever. My whole semester's exam in 3 frigging days like wtf right? 3 days for 3 subjects, but we made it through. Throughout the entire study period, and exam period, I was online. I just couldn't resist Facebook and Twitter. Just too difficult. I wouldn't even have concentrated if I hadn't been to FB. That's how bad my addiction is. So, while stalking people on FB, I found out that the next day, 2nd Dec 2010, which is the last day of my exam, is also the day of Gary's new album press conference. OMG what better way to celebrate independence than seeing Gary in person?????

I wasn't invited, or either was i blogger or reporters, i'm just a random person in a random event hehehe. ~~No, I’m actually Tzerazzi~~ :)

So, I thought there would be more fans going to the press conference, but i only saw 1. and i dont know her. im lucky kailee is with me, or else i'll just die there. ok we were late because we got lost on our way to mont kiara. end up paying rm8 for unnecessary toll. followed the gps and it brought me to this junction that was closed and then i was back to the toll booth again. grrrr, lucky asked the toll booth attendant and she said go to jalan kuching way instead of following signboard. u see u see, drive in msia kenot follow signboard 1, confirm get lost!

ok, and then we reach solaris and didn't know where is the place. wasted time looking for the place again. :(
we were like walking round and round... ok la not so kuazhang but i want to add drama can or not? hehehehhehe

actually i saw this logo and had a feeling that we were at the right place, but then i dont know where is the entrance. bodohnya could have just asked nearby people if there's any, but nooo, we walked back to the nearest guard and asked for the direction. din know that we were actually there, just need entrance... hehehehhehe

ok i was late, so when i reach there they are already finishing with the tallking and it's picture time. i didnt bring my dslr there and feel paiseh to squeeze in between those pro and i end up with 'not so many pictures'. hehehehehe.

Photo session with the people from dunno what companies. i think sony is one of them. apparently they are the ones that brought the album into msia. and i believe msians are the latest to get the album. its like 2 or 3 weeks later than HK and Taiwan. not very sure, but thats what i think.

Followed with solo picture with his autograph on the backdrop. he wrote love and peace, typical gary. then, he came down the stage and the reporters crowd him to interview him. he seated in the middle and they have to record/write down whatever he said.

This is my favourite picture from the day, abit over exposed, but its so colourfulll!!! oya i was torn between recording and taking pictures, and record like 10 secs and then take 1 or 2 pics then record another 5 seconds. complete waste of chance and time. wasnt interested in what he was saying because, well, i just rushed there from my exam, and i had been sleeping 2 hours a day for the past 4 days, i am beyond tired and i know that papers/magazines/tv/online will publish it mah.... ok bad fan, baaaaaad fan....

after the interview, someone asked gary to pose and take picture in one corner, so i just go kaypoh lah hehehehe.... the effects are really nice with the lightings, but i have a sucky camera. so suck that im surprised it produces images. but i still love my hong dou *camera's name* because i bought it with my hard-saved money.

this is the stage for the event. taken after, when every1's left. hehe im supposed to go up there and take pic with that thing but there's jsut too many people, and i sked! so in the end, after all the general interview and photoshootng outside, he went into a room and he was inthere for hourss... some reporters had exclusive interview with him in the room, to record, etc etc. and we were given chance to enter the room and take picture with him. i jusst said hi, gary and din dare to look at him edi hehehhe i suck like that. till now im still waiting for the picture from sony.

.. waiting

.... waiting

.......... waiting

.....................still waiting.....

i have already partly lost hope that i will get the picture from them. :( yerrrrr kenot take with own camera samo!! sien~

hehehe, as a closing, here's another pic of him with green lights... the actual picture is much brighter and blur, so i had to make it darker.

pps: i actually wrote this at 1am and now is 4.36am. wow dah lama i din spend so much time writing a blog post. and this is nothing, cant imagine how those pro bloggers do it. do they spend so much time on 1 post tooo???

ppps: writing this post reminds me that i have another 'gary post' delayed wayyyy back from april hehehehe....

breakfast from market :)

2010-12-08T18:46:00.003+08:00

it's been a while since i went to the morning market. i just finished exam and went back to the hometown. i expect to sleep till 1pm everyday and watch tv, etc etc. i know, wasting time, but there's no line back home and nothing else to do. i was the only one back and the others are having exam, what the hell am i suppose to do?

one fine morning dont know why i wake up like damn early, before 7.30am!!!! like, super duper early in my dictionary okay...

so i went out to the atm and took $$, then to the market. heheh so weird to go bank so early in stw, no ppl. in subang, every morning sure there's a queue at atm de...

no one's at home and im suppose to buy breakfast for me myself. end up bought too much but i finished it all.. mana mungkin tak gemuk macam ni?

been having this nasi lemak every morning since i got home. grandma would buy for me. nice okeh, if go past 8.30am, sure habis already, thats how laku it is.... hehehhe....

and i bought another 2 curry puffs from the same stall.

RM 1.80 for the nasi lemak above and 2 curry puffs.

then on the way out of the market, i walked past another stall selling this colourful kuih and i HAD TO BUY them!! hehe.. planned to buy only like 3 pieces, end up with 5 pieces cause the uncle said 5 for RM2. hehehe entahlah psychology student ape aku ni... i fall for this kind of thing hehehe....

then while buying kuih, i saw packs of nasi lemak and i HAD to get it also. want to try mahhhhh....

5 pieces of kuih and 1 pack of nasi lemak, RM 3 total damage.

then i walked further and i took a detour to the soyabean stall. very long din have warm and fresh soya bean omg its so awesome i just love it.

1 pack less sugar soya bean, RM1.80

then i saw coconut on the way out, and bought 1 pack for grandpa. RM 1.20

too bad there's a queue at the yau chau kuai stall , if not i will buy somemore... hehehhehehe

came home and ate that 2 packs of nasi lemak, but not before taking pictures hehehhehehe

RM 7.80 for 2 meals worth of food.... satisfied :)

2010-12-01T23:32:00.001+08:00

im screwed.

think twice before u enrol in any degree...

2010-11-28T03:14:00.003+08:00

slept till 12.20pm, then went straight to uni. i woke up at 9.30 to bath edi lah, then i went back to sleep.

lunched till 2+pm, studied till 4plus.

day dreamed till 7, came home, turned on tv and waited for phw awards.

i told myself its ok to not watch for 1 year. but i made a mistake by loggin on to fb while in uni.
saw some status updates from ppl in genting, and i end up in front of tv.

i totally lack self control wtf i hate myself now.

:(

couldn't study brain.
wtf im not becoming a doctor why should i study brain and chemical related stuff?

WHYYYYYY??

T__T

What if. . .

2010-11-25T02:48:00.002+08:00

it says,

" was just wondering, will their world be more colourful without me?

or,

how will MY world be without them?

The 'them' im refering to are those people who is in my life now, or happened to be in my life once before.
like, my family, friends, classmates, lecturers, online friends."

How had/have I impacted them?

for example.

my brother. if i didnt have him as a brother, then i would not have grown up torturing people. my life would be boring.

:) u get the idea.

2010-11-22T22:50:00.001+08:00

im being last minute again.
exam's in a week, 3 consecutive days.

0% studied.

3 subjects.

aim: 2nd Upper Class Honours.

my present woooots

2010-11-19T02:41:00.002+08:00

只是个美女给我的生日礼物。
你觉得是苹果还是tomato？

just got this gift just now from muns.
:) my bday was in june :)

at first i see is apple, then i think think, it is tomato.
altho its clearly written there apple, but then,
apple why no stalk one?

hehehe...

meaningful gift.

2010-11-17T01:34:00.006+08:00

i am very happy today, cause i did something normal people will think is lame, but for all the people involved in the project, it'll be something that we all will cherish and remember. it all really started from a random empty talk in a myvi. then it became real. overnight, we made it into reality.

printing: RM4
value of the papers printed: priceless.

a gift does not need to be something expensive, just need to be from the heart, and it'll be an ideal gift already.

don't you think so?
expensive doesn't mean good. i like surprises more.

so, what do you prefer? expensive or meaningful?

New baby

2010-11-12T01:48:00.002+08:00

Hellow people, let's welcome my new baby on board. She's now 6 days old. DOB: 6 Nov 2010.

First time i saw her, I cant help but smile. I was having a really bad mood, but all the negativity gone when I see her. Partly is because she's unexpected. She's gorgeous ain't she?

I named her Sony Fairlady because she's white.

At a hefty price of RM299, I'd say, she's worth it.

I love her sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much. Muahhhh.

2010-11-09T11:46:00.001+08:00

hellow people, i have just changed the blog template, please tell me whether this template is ok or not k...thanks xD

2010-11-08T18:12:00.003+08:00

me no like mondays.
especially today.

wtF betul.
wake up 7am for my 9.30am class, but found out that the lecturer took a day off today. left with 5 hours to spare.

MENTAL TORTURE I TELL YOU!

would have gone home if my hse is not that far.

FML

future room

2010-11-03T22:02:00.003+08:00

please click on the pic to view a larger version

i am going to move from a quite big room to a small room.
was just wondering how should i ... fit everything i have here to there.
even here, i don't have enough place for my things already ah.....
somemore its a window-less room!!

how how HOW??
how to bring so many things overrrrr???? how?

do you think it's wise to move there?
but i have no other place to go.
*** if only rent is cheaperrr....

Happy Belated Halloween!!

2010-11-01T01:46:00.002+08:00

Wanted to edit using Picnik, and zombify, or whatever like I did last year. But then, I thought, this picture scary enough already, dun need to edit anything. The edited version will turn out less scary hehe... xD

Omg, after I post this, no more face to show liao..

do you know its not healthy to sleep 3 hours a day?

2010-10-31T21:13:00.003+08:00

supposed to post this last Thursday, but there were no wireless in the two classes i was in, and i went back home straight, so i've been internetless since, thursday.

Read on and u'll know why being online is so important to me.

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i went to class with a heavy heart on thursday. because i was supposed to write a free thinking essay after reading an article about sleep. i've never done free thinking essay before. everything that i've written in my past 4 years is all based on facts, and everything needs a citation...

so i just wrote on my experience and what i think, which is 2 paragraph long. then i summarize the article, then it became 1 and the half page long.

don't know whether will kena scold anot for writing rubbish like this. and we're supposed to show our essay to the lecturer and she'll be commenting one by one.

turns out ok, but it's like getting a reality slap in the face. if there's any.

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i wrote that i slept only 3 - 4 hours a day. the lecturer say this is bad and unacceptable. there is no time to rest. in long term, my eyes may not be able to see clearly (thank goodness still ok), watery eyes(yes, alrd have), worsen memory(explains why monday im so blur, i cant think, cant decide, cant rmbr nothing), etc. cant remember what else she told me.

after i heard all that, i felt like, erm... yeah that is what happened to me. and i didnt know its because i din sleep properly for the past few weeks.

my sleeping time, it was 1.30am the latest, and now it became 4.30am. i dont know what's wrong with me i just dont sleep.

another thing she asked, "what were u doing at that time when you are not sleeping?" i said, "facebook".

she then mentioned that facebook had more or less become an addiction to me. i cant deny that. i know i am addicted to it. i dont know why too. yes, im bored with fb, but then i stil log on to it. its the 1st thing i do when i wake up and the last thing i see before i sleep.

she said, its like substance abuse, or being addicted to smoking. ok now i understand smokers better. u cant just quit. its hard.

that's like the 2nd reality slap. i need to wake up, but how???
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i need to take all the extra time i have to study. i need to be prepared for my exam. its less than 1 month and here i am, on fb and blogger.

no title

2010-10-26T12:28:00.004+08:00

i think i should just write first while waiting for the pictures to upload.

yesterday was monday. went to class yesterday and many ppl ask me if i was sick. if i needed rest. some said i look like i have high fever. some say my lips are white. and i can't judge situations properly, i cant think properly, and i cant decide even on simple things. i dont know what is wrong with me. future doctors, can tell if anything's wrong with me????

yesterday was monday, which means that it was start of the week. by the end of monday night, i am left with only rm7 for the rest of the week. owed rach rm20 for installing microsoft word into my netbook. unnecessary spending, RM29 for a pair of shoes. argh! i bought it cause it's discounted rm20 cause shadow bought something from cotton on. so its buying then or buying it at a more expensive price lorh. and i have to eat bread for the rest of the week.

the search for the room is still on-going. found some reasonably priced(some may say, walao so expensive lehhh) but then when i ask them about the parking, every1 stop replying. :(

last week, we went out for dinner and we had desserts 3 days in a row wtf.

first, we went to this 'hongkong-ish style' dessert place near asia cafe. then snowflakes. then secret recipe.
BOO! lose weight konon!

snowflakes. taro series, set 4.

saturday volunteered at mcpf crime prevention again. this year got more participants walao the whole auditorium full wehhhhh... at the end of the event, thre's this focus group discussion and the leader of the group has to go up the stage, stand in front of sooo many people and present their discussions. OMGOSHHH!! those people who went up are secondary school students. i present in front of the class also got nervous breakdown edi, apatah lagi this one present in front of a full auditorium weh...

people raising hands to support the statement.

and oh, did i mention? we had to be in uni at 7AM on a SATURDAY for this event. :(
i slept late, arnd 4.30am on friday night, then end up waking up only at 7am because shadow called.

this is loves. i dont think we can get this in malaysia. damn nice ok, if i see it i'll end up buying it everydayyyy!

Pocky. Almond Crush Bitter YUMZ!

Looking for room to rent

2010-10-25T01:34:00.002+08:00

i am now considered homeless. looking for a place to stay. pls pls pls i hope i can find a room with no problems/defects paling paling teruk by december. need to move in late-est in january. *fingers crossed*

i've emailed, posted on fb wall, sms-ed.

in the mean while, i need to pray i dun change my mind too... xD

and i need to work now, for extra pocket money now that im moving out. :(
any available part time jobs for me?

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ps: shouldn't have bought camera.

things i do in class

2010-10-23T02:12:00.004+08:00

one of the cool thing being in sunway for psychology is....
we have a chance to see the brain up close and personal.
where else can i have the chance to see, disect, and study the brain?

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* warning, please dun continue scrolling down if you are eating.
some individuals may find it disgusting.

this is cow brain, but still is a brain.

after months of building the models and detailing out the functions of each part,
we got to touch, see and feel the real brain!

the above is the nicest brain of all that day, and my group got the worse brain to study on...

have to wake up 5.30am later, omgosh 3 hrs more to sleep only.
pls pls pls let me wake up at that time!!

the above picture is taken with my azuukee, Nikon Coolpix s3000.
quite a sucky camera. believe or not, this is the nicest picture taken so far.

wp

2010-10-16T23:25:00.002+08:00

ladies, and gentleman,

this is my desktop wallpaper.

"super cool" huh? xD

i am busy, but i am very free.

Unimaginable Busy-ness

2010-10-10T22:19:00.004+08:00

i am tired.
- just got back from a frigging long drive because of the jam.
i drove more than 3 straight hours, shut up!

i have a lot of things lined up.

- waiting for me to complete.
- waiting for me to touch.

Monday, i have two major discussions.
pls give me strength so that i can take it all in on Monday.

Tuesday, meeting up with friend and her classmates.
i need a break from all the work OK.

Wed and Thur, work my ass off.

Friday, due date for brain parts and functions.

next Monday, presentation.
formal, with formal jacket, heels, and make up (nightmare).
and it's going to be video-ed. FML.

next Wednesday, FML much, due date for the research paper that i have yet to start.
i have no idea :
- on how to interpret the result, which means that, how am i supposed to start on writing the whole paper?
- and on how to look for journals for a research that was probably done countless times, but is not published?

next next Monday, due date for the report for the presentation.

i can "phew" after that, but i have to be reminded that i have yet to touch any text books or start in any form of revision.
double FML.

oh BTW,

i like it on the bed.

Social Gathering

2010-10-04T12:03:00.003+08:00

4th social gathering since i step into this department.
this is the awesome-st!

chocolate brownieeee~~

i was the 'official photographer' for this gathering.
came home with 400 pics.

*wondering how many more will there be before i grad*

posted this and felt like words too little.

cream soup was gooooooooooooooooooooooooood.
main dish, okay lah, love the chicken and the fish, but i din had the other fish cause i see tiny bones...
pasta, spicy abit, i heard the duck was superb awesome, but i din notice cause i was all around taking pics...
choc brownie, AWESOME-ness!!!
loooooves, but a bit too sweet.

i'm procrastinating

2010-09-30T08:47:00.002+08:00

submitted this to the new forum i joined,
and there's alot mistakes pointed out in this
one simple picture.

even those mistakes that i cant even imagine.

i never knew photography was this complicated.

:(

2010-09-27T22:45:00.000+08:00

urgh, im angry.

can i have something to smash? the laptop perhaps?

Udang punya Otak

2010-09-26T22:33:00.003+08:00

This is not my car. Or anyone I know of. This car owner attended the open house by my neighbour. Parked right in front of other people's house for a few hours, din even have the courtesy to say Sorry, give Lansi and i-dont-care face when asked to remove the car.

Which human in the right mind would do such thing? parking right in front of people's house? Is it that difficult to walk a few extra steps?

Seriously. Sigh.

Ps: The black censor part is not on purpose. it was accidental as i was covering a person and the shadow.

I heart Psych

2010-09-21T23:48:00.002+08:00

Today in the lecture, the lecturer said something about determining the aims and goals, and also know what the students expectations, what they look forward to in learning a subject, etc. (oklah, something like that, I wasn't paying attention)

Then, in the midst of my day dream, I thought to myself and wondered, "Is this what I really want? Is psychology my calling?" Then the answer came to me, "Yes, this is all that I've dreamed of. Studying Psychology."

I want to know more, I want to gain more knowledge in this field. I want to be a psychologist. The road is long, but one day, I will be there. I believe I can.

There are people who think that what I'm studying now is "oh-so-cool", but it may not be so. Well, it IS cool, but its not easy too! As it is with any other degrees out there. I think that those studying photography are cool, but if you are judging from what you see from the outside, you are definitely wrong. Have to understand the whole thing to judge. I once thought too, photography just take camera, point and click to take photo only mah.. easy job... but when you learn more, you'll realise it's a whole new world there.

ok, side track a little. I think i have love-hate relationship with psychology. I enjoy this subject, I love learning new things, I like administering scales, but, I dont love to revise, and there are some parts of psychology I hate with all my heart. Like, IO.

The one subject that I struggled to keep my eyes open 5mins into the lecture. Even seeing the words make me sleepy.

Btw, anyone willing to teach me english?

me can type chinese, dont play play

2010-09-18T01:07:00.004+08:00

我很开心。因为我的assignment让我有机会和我的相机花多一点时间。
wo hen kai xin。 ying wei wo de assignment rang wo you ji hui he wo de xiang ji hua yi dian shi jian。

I just found out my computer can type chinese hehehe.

I'm learning to cook chicken dishes from a fellow classmate, and i'm teaching photography to another classmate. It's not like im a pro or whatever in photography(im still very much a beginer), it's just that i don't have any other skills. I cant teach chinese, im a banana myself. I cant teach people how to cook, because i can only fry egg. Photography is my hobby, something that i love, and i figured, by doing this for my assignment, i can now 'touch' the camera which is in hibernating mode since april.

And, here are the samples of pics i took while waiting the other day. i seriously miss taking pictures. More pictures in my Flickr. :)

bored sia

2010-09-08T16:11:00.002+08:00

bored face, im bored.
he he.
thought this blog need some colour.
it's turning dull.

im waiting for the rain to stop so i could go home!

should be doing something more productive

2010-09-07T18:38:00.000+08:00

finally figured out how to post using phone. reminder to self! always remember to use edit html

its all about me!

2010-09-04T01:35:00.003+08:00

. i kinda forgot i have a blog.

. its frustrating not to know how to read chinese.

. bought a new awesome bed sheet last thursday.

. went out with cuzzie last tuesday.

. im not craving snowflakes because i had that with her on tuesday.

. gary is posting a new status everyday. me likey!

. it's it that hard to type a reply? because some people just don't know how to reply.

. fine. i should have known better.

. i realised, the mind is a very powerful tool. it can make me happy one moment, and very depressed the next.

. i am very tired trying to control the mind. everytime it went to the wrong side, i have to try very hard to bring it back to the right side.

. dont care if anyone understands, as long as i do.

. my english getting suckier.

. i regret not mastering the languages properly.

. i regret not learning to speak in dialect.

. i have jealousy issue. something with the right and wrong side of the mind.

. partly is because im super sensitive too. i make up stories which may not be true and tend to exaggerate.

. i said im craving ice cream, but its not exactly a craving. i just want to go out and do something.

. we have completed the brain! quite nicely done, and it costs a bomb.

. i am anti-social.

. i rejected any forms of invitation. some with valid reasons, some with made-up excuse.

. i think i am a weeee bit depressed sometimes.

. i am wondering where is the other half.

. i have also wondered, why had God made me this way. not that i blame or what, just wondering. and why did he made my friends, or random people the way they were.

. i drive super slow.

. i drove to pg and got stopped by police, for exceeding 2kmph over the speed limit. ff. the joys of driving during festive season.

. the way im living my life, i might as well go stay in a cave, away from civilisation.

got the pay

2010-08-24T22:31:00.001+08:00

i just received my pay for the part time job i did in june. woooohooo...

but, on the other hand, i spent twice the amount on buying stuff online.

see ya..

2010-08-21T00:34:00.002+08:00

I didn't fail. Semester FIVE commence last Monday. I'm quite life-less now, with the assignment load and also not seeing the shadows. Hence, the lack of blog post.

Anyway, just a super short update to show that I'm alive.

Supposed to be at Genting now, but extra class killed the trip.
And supposed to be in Pyramid to learn bowling, but cancelled. And I hate myself for waking up late. Sigh.

I'm looking forward to Melaka trip, and photography outings.

Which I really hope would work out.

Results, where are you?

2010-08-12T00:19:00.001+08:00

Your results are currently not available.

OMgosh have been staring at this sentense for the past two weeks. every day i log in to izone to check ok! Then they say its coming out latest by 12th August! It's now 12 August, where is my damn result?

OMGosh im so nervous, so did i fail or not?
Resit timetable is already OUT last week lehhh,means they already know the result, its just that they have to take an extra step this time to key it in izone. WHY THE TROUBLE?

How am I going to sleep tonight?

Have to drive long distance some more tomorrow lehhhh! WTF!

The End of My Smelly Pillow.

2010-08-11T00:11:00.005+08:00

Today, I was damn mad at someone. Something. Ok, it's my brother's dog. She has been teman-ing me till 3am every night. She sleeps very close to me while im online, or playing games. So close, i can feel her heartbeat.

BUT today, this little naughty girl had been very very naughty. She somehow got hold of my bao bao(smelly pillow) on the couch and bit it. Bite till koyak ok. You say lah, mad or not? This is not the first time its happening. A few days ago, i left on a rather low chair and I came home with the bao bao on the floor. Alright, she just bit like one end of it, I still have the other end, so I din really punish her.

But today, she bit both sides ok. Right I realise I sound very childish now, BUT LET ME TELL YOU SOMETHING. NO ONE, NO ONE AT ALL, AND NOTHING, CAN EVER INFLICT ANY HARM TO MY BAO BEI BAO BAO. I HAVE LOVED THIS THING FOR THE PAST 21 YEARS, AND IM GONNA LOVE IT TILL THE DAY I DIE. UNDERSTAND?!

I can't control myself, i just hit her, and then she ran away. And hid behind some table. I moved the table, the chairs, till she got no place to hide, grab her and threw her outside. She hates being alone, you see. She hate being isolated and not loved. She likes attention. Right, someone has to teach her discipline and respect. She was outside for 10seconds and started scratching the door, barking, etc. Had her there for few minutes, and being a good, friendly, considerate neighbour, I opened the door, and grab her, and she fought back. She knew I was angry, and didn't want me to grab her anymore. somehow i managed to get hold of her back leg and and she was upside down. Fight somemore lah.

Got her in the house, threw her into the cage. She absolutely H A T E being locked in the cage. She started barking like whole taman can hear ok. I fill a glass of water, and started to sprinkle her everytime she bark. Floor all wet ahhhh...

Gosh, i felt so evil, but she deserves it. She didn't like the water and stopped barking and sat quietly in the cage. Then, mum got her out because she's going grooming. LOLs.

Spoilt my appetite nia wtf. Planned to have durians while she was away de. Cause she damn excited when she smells durian. Thought maybe i could enjoy my durians with peace and quiet. mana tau, lost appetite sial. Damn geram ok, I even called grandma and complain and emo-ed whole afternoon-evening. babi-ness.

And when she got back from grooming, I kinda ignored her and she sense that I hate her and kept her distance from me. And even now, she didn't dare to sleep beside me yet.

I still hate you, do you know? haizzz...

Ok as i am typing this, she's sleeping on the floor, 10 inches away from me, dreaming. You know she's dreaming cause she has those cute barks. like dream talking.

I want to be angry with her, but I also know that she is like a child, curious about everything and didn't know that she's not suppose to be doing what she did. Sighs, how how? Damn angry but can't be angry also.

I wanted to have a cute picture of her here, but i damn lazy load photo from camera. sorreh.

#712

2010-08-07T00:07:00.003+08:00

According to Blogger.com, this is post number 712. It's been a long journey. I had this blog since form 3. wow-ness.

It's so peaceful here, i don't feel like going home so early :(

Exam results are very worrying. Why so they have to add an extra step? If they would just call and tell, then we wouldn't have to wait so long. Result are out yeah, but we can't see our results yet, because it's not in izone yet. and for a high risk student like me, i have done nothing but worry during my holidays.

since the start of holiday till now, there's only one question in my mind. "What if I failed? What will I do then?"

Just want to share one emo song today.

怎麽了.你累了.说好的.幸福呐
我懂了.不说了.爱淡了.梦淹了
开心与不开心.一一叙说着.你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻.我都还记得

what happened, you're tired, hadn't we agreed, to have happiness
i understand, don't say anymore, love had weakened, my dreams have sunk
being happy and not, narrating them one after another, you can't bear it
those feelings of having loved are too deep, i still remember them

Partial lyrics from here.

Why me?

2010-08-02T00:07:00.003+08:00

holiday doesn't feel like a holiday. i miss my last holiday. were out every single day learning photography. wanted to do it this holiday too, and since i have longer break this time, i thought it would be the perfect time to get back to my camera, which has been long forgotten due to the overflowing assignments and exams. but i have no photo-buddy with me this break, so i was stuck at home. yeah, for the past TWO weeks in at home. miserable holiday.

finally drag my ass and went to see a skin specialist. what i feared most happened. there's nothing i could do

about my disgusting arms. i am born with this and i'm hit jackpot inheriting this genes, so there's absolutely nothing i can do about it. *Well, i'm thinking if i cant do anything bout that, i might as well have a big tatoo to cover up those disgusting parts. at least tatoos are pretty.* ok, i couldn't speak a word in the doctor's office because i was trying very hard not to cry. *mum's with me, it wud be ugly to make a scene* seriously, it felt like, the doctor just told me i'm at the final stage of some disease and i'm about to die in two weeks. it feels like, i got stabbed in the heart.

im going to die old, grumpy, lonely.

"Why me?"

sometimes i cant help but wonder, why do i always get the bad genes?

the big bones(there's no way i can be thin), the fats(makes it more impossible), the flat feet(i can't get pretty girly shoes), the skin-disease like arms(i disgust myself, everytime i look at it i cant help but wonder, why me?), the way i speak(i can't pronounce s, x, f, etc...),my very bad temper(confirm inherited, it's in my blood),...

FML.

Dear KTM, YOU JUST DESTROYED MY LOVELY THURSDAY!

2010-07-16T01:28:00.004+08:00

Exam's OVER!!!

yippie!! *jumps in joy!!!*

okay, it was over on Monday 12July. Since then, life has been a roller coaster ride.

Right after exam, met up with Yuki and went to Pyramid. lunch, movie, and then she went off to see her other friends. oh yeah, i brought the d60 to the exam hall, and carried it throughout the week. Yay me now. And not using it at ALL.

Tuesday went to Ikea. Bought two rollers, and thats all.

Wednesday, went to watch movie in Pyramid. Spend the whole day in Pyramid okays?

Thursday. Today. Lols, we have nothing to do, I drove to uni, and took cab to Subang Jaya KTM with sue and ying. Went to the machine, there's no Mid Valley written there, so we press the KL Sentral button lorh! but the stupid machine didn't want the coins, so we went up to the counter to get our tickets. being confident first timers, we went up to the counter and asked for KL Sentral tickets. AND didn't even think to ask for MidValley tickets. BECAUSE, if it's not printed on the machine, how can we ask for it?

ok.

then we took the train to central, and changed to the other platform. if you have been there, you'll know changing platform is easy. then reach mid valley liao, the guard asked us to stand aside till he finished checking the train tickets. ok. and then he scolded us and demanded that we should pay RM 30 PER PERSON, which means RM90 for THREE people because we got off the wrong station. WTF.

WE WERE RELUCTANT TO PAY, AND WERE HESITATING, AND DISCUSSING AMONG OURSELVES, AND ONE OF THEM SAID, IT'S OK IF YOU DON'T WANT TO PAY RM90, I GIVE YOU CHANCE AND YOU PAY RM30, WHICH MEANS RM10 PER PERSON. HE KEPT REPEATING ON HOW HE GIVE CHANCE BLAH BLAH BLAH, AND THEN WE DIDN'T WANT TO ARGUE WITH THEM ANYMORE, AND JUST GIVE THEM THE RM30.

I ASK YOU LAH, IF THE RM30 GOES INTO THE KTM COMPANY ACCOUNT, THEN WHY I GIVE HIM RM50, HE CHANGED FIVE RM10 NOTES OUT AND GIVE ME BACK RM20? IF THE RM30 GOES INTO KTM COMPANY ACCOUNT, ISN'T HE SUPPOSED TO COME OUT WITH ONLY RM20 CHANGE FOR ME? YOU TELL ME LAH, WHERE THE MONEY GOES TO?... USE BRAIN USE BRAIN!!

OH YA, HE SAID, NOW I GIVE YOU CHANCE, YOU PAY RM30, THAT'S RM10 PER PERSON. YOU DON'T NEED TO PAY RM90 ANYMORE. I GIVE YOU DISCOUNT, NOW YOU PAY WHAT THOSE PEOPLE WITH BIG THINGS PAY. *BEFORE HE QUESTION US, THERE WAS ONE GUY WITH BIG THINGS(SOME BOXES OF THINGS)*

lol. AND THEN THEY SAID, YOU SHOULD ASK.

MY QUESTION: WHO TO ASK?

HE CLAIMED THAT THERE ARE GUARDS IN BETWEEN PLATFORMS AND ALSO POLICE AROUND BEFORE WE BOARD THE TRAIN TO MID VALLEY. LOL. MAYBE I'M BLIND OR I NEED TO GET MY EYES CHECKED, BECAUSE I SEE NONE. (MUNGKIN AKU BUTA KE, ATAU MUNGKIN AKU KENA GI TENGOK DOKTOR MATA, SBB I TAK JUMPA PUN POLIS ATAU GUARD YANG KORANG CAKAPKAN TU!!)

WE PAID THAT RM30 BECAUSE WE DIDN'T WANT TO ARGUE FURTHER WITH THOSE PEOPLE, THEY'RE JUST A WASTE OF TIME.

SO OUR JOURNEY TO MIDVALLEY TODAY: RM9(CAB) + RM1.60*3(TRAIN) + RM30(COFFEE MONEY FOR IDIOTS) = RM43.80

NEH LI KONG CB WTF waisa RM43.80 JUST TO TRAVEL TO MID VALLEY FROM SUNWAY???? NIAMAH DE....

TAKE CAB WHOLE WAY TO MID VALLEY ALSO NOT SO FUCKING EXPENSIVE OK.

Yes, we are the ones at fault for not checking properly, BUT there’s seriously no MIDVALLEY on the machine ok. dah la pagi2 buta blurrr, manalah will think so much to A S K??? We insisted that there's no MV printed on the machine, and he said, I TAU SUBANG, DULU I KERJA SANA. lols, you work there means you know everything there isit?

random dreams

2010-07-08T11:15:00.003+08:00

gosh i had the weirdest dream.

together with another friend, we drove to another state, where my crush-ed came from. went to the clinic there to say hi to my friend's friend. we were there to do something, i just can't remember what. were supposed to go home at the very same day, but i knew that he was around and so i tried to coax my friend to ho home one day later.

ok so she finally agreed and i find myself rushing for a flight. sitted in the place, but the plane did not take off. *roll eyes* where to take off to? the place just moved, and crossed a river, and i arrived at my destination. weird ha? ok, i don't know what happened to the car i drove before also, and i have no idea at all why the hell was i in the plane the first place.

called him and tell him that i'm around and on the pretext that we are looking for nice foods and recommendations. when he give some suggestions, it's not like we know where is what and how. so in the end he had to come over, and we, have to look for a place to stay the night.

he could only come at 4.30pm, it was like 1pm when i called.

then, when he came, i was in the building, described to him where i was, and he look nervous when he didn't see me anywhere. hello, i have to walk out the building first ma.

when i came out, i saw him asking a random stranger there whether you have seen a girl this tall, hair this length nearby. the stranger said no and left.

then when he saw me, he ran towards me and he hugged me so tight it hurt my nose :( i told him to back off cause my nose hurts, and then, awkward hug next.

apparently, he brought a friend too. :(

and it's a she.

then, we went somewhere to get food, and she end up shopping for books and we all have to wait for her. i went in the store to get sweets and he was holding her books, before paying he said something like, confession of love, eg. I fell for you since the first time I met you, I've been giving so many hints and why didn't you see any of them? Even if you rejected me today, i would be still waiting for you, bla bla bla ( ok he said it in a more touching manner, in other words too).

then she kinda disappeared, and he helped me pay for my sweets and returned the change to me. so i was kinda confused and ask, who were you confessing to? he said her. *heartbreak*.

well, throughout the whole time, have to act like i'm supporting him. and tried to get them together. *Stupid*

but it's nice to meet up after so long. xD

i'll be back!

2010-07-07T12:58:00.003+08:00

omgosh i just realised that the blog's so dead.

was reading back at my older posts, and i just remembered i have my gary posts. ouch, it's like april's event wehhh.... ok ok i will blog bout that right after my exams :D :D the reason for the late-ness is partly because i dont know how to write it and i feel like i will spoil the excitedness or something by writing it not so excitingly... *low self-esteem mah*

and its like quite an important blogpost for me *cause its like the first time i see him so up close* and i dont want to ruin it.

kind of in the middle of exams, and i have another paper on monday, and i have yet to start reading. seriously its not a nice paper, and i will try to love it for this one week...

i will end this post with one pic from Bangkok :D

i realised alot of my posts are very wordy. me no likey.

he must be thinking, "what the hell, never see people wash pots before isit?"

busy busy week

2010-07-01T21:57:00.004+08:00

24th June :

Birthday, and Rushing for Presentation slides

25th June:

didn't sleep the previous night, Presentation at 8.30am, slides not done. Rushed home after presentation and went to KLIA for flight to Bangkok. Arrived in Bangkok at 5pm. Jam hour. 1 hour drive to hotel, freshen up and dinner nearby. went to Suam Lum night bazaar till midnight. rained when we wanted to leave.

26th June:

went to Chatuchak. Siu yok there is super delicious, i want to go again!! Took train the whole day i want to pengsan. not complaining tho. its kinda fun. got lost, then took cab to Thai Leather Fair. Then went somewhere to sit at the bus stop while waiting for the others, and McD. Samurai Pork Burger FTW!! Freshen up, went to Health Land for foot massage. Then to Pathong to walk somemore.. crazy day~~

27th June:

Booked a van to the floating market. 130km from the city. Nais food on the river okeh... yummy-licious koay teow thng... Then went to see my friends, and paid 600baht for a ride on my friends, the elephant. stopped by on the way back for lunch, sleep all the way back. Dropped things back in the hotel, went to Pratunam but left after 10minutes. too noisy too many people. Took tuk tuk to MBK, where i kena cheated 200baht because the tuk tuk driver drove off without returning money >:(

shopped in MBK till evening. dinner at Bar B Q Plaza. 480baht for 6 people. damn cheap ok.

Then, went back hotel thru train, freshen up and went back to Health Land again for massage.

Had 7-11 frozen food for supper. Damn delicious i tell you!!! why lah Malaysia dun allow pork?? if not we also have yummy-licious 7-11 frozen food hehe. ok im not complaining, can always fly to thailand to have their frozen food. *rolls eyes*

28th June:

Early morning go airport. Reached Malaysia at 2.10pm, took one hour to come out from immigration sweat-ness. Back home, had lunch and the others went back to stw. rest, relax, facebooked, almost sleep edi, then mum called and say my grand-aunt passed away already.

29th June:

went home to stw for the funeral. too tired, i slept whenever i had the chance.

30th June:

woke up early morn, but the rest had yet to wake up, so i went back to bed. was in deep-sleep period when mum woke me up. thus, resulting in the tired-ness the whole day. went for breakfast then to the funeral. i stood behind hilux to take photo okay~ from kg. koh to thur market area. :) kekeke.

1st July:

It's been a busy week, now that i can slow down and read my notes, i am so unmotivated.

fk the english, i dun give a damn edi, too much info in the brain i cant think much.

5th July: EXAM!!! I haven start study ahhhhhhhhhhh~~

COMM SKILLS & DEVELOPMENTAL!!!

TWO FRIGGING SUBS IN ONE MISERABLE DAY!!

I THINK MY HEAD'LL EXPLODE...

*ka-BOOM-z*

2010-06-22T01:36:00.000+08:00

when a person is lifeless, then there's nothing to blog.

mood: emo

i so hope that there's no fat or thin in this world. everyone would just be average. then there's no competition. i want a food trip ahhh...

my fingers are tired

2010-06-17T03:14:00.000+08:00

urgh! just typed quite a long post. with the phone. and then i saved it in draft and start all over again. what the hell. my fingers are starting to get tired. ouch my fingers.

ok i was just thinking about my grandparents and how they would watch what they eat to control their cholesterol, high blood pressure,etc. ok they don't eat prawns. oh cool, my phone t9 dictionary has the word prawns. for my birthday this year, i really wanted a prawns based meal. but i was just thinking. birthdays happens every year. it's just a birthday no big deal. aren't their health more important than my cravings for prawns? i shouldn't be selfish. should count my blessings that my family is coming and spending time for my birthday. hehe.

today is the starting of the very last week of my 20yearold. i'm gonna be 21. have to grow up. :) be more considerate of others. i ain't no spoilt brat. i ain't no princess.

by the way, 3am is the new 11pm

3 years ago

2010-06-16T23:28:00.003+08:00

For your info, this is post #702 :D

This is a video i found in my comp. Checked the date, I made this in 2007. OMGosh, ancient.
I remember doing this when I was bored and Gary Chaw is like..... The one and only singer I TRULY, MADLY, DEEPLY LOVE!!!! at that time. Now too :D :D

He's like the first ever singer/artist/feh-mes people I supported so long you know. July 2006 - present. :D

For those who DONT KNOW who is Gary Chaw, this is his Wikipedia link.

Lucky Escape

2010-06-15T22:53:00.003+08:00

this afternoon, after class, I went to register my subjects. Sadly, there's no more space for tutorial 1, and so I had to sign up for tutorial 2. :( Not very happy. I know it doesn't matter which class I go to, but i think i find more comfort with tutorial 1. I think. Should change my mind set! As Daph said, "this is your chance to meet new people and explore."

Then, after that went to Pyramid via Shuttle bus with the Shadows :D

Ok, I was walking ahead, while 3 others were behind. As i was walking towards the bus stop, i heard "Krak, krak" sound. Quite loud one ok... Then suddenly I hear something heavy fell, and i stop and turned to the back, and THE WHOLE TREE BRANCH FELL!! if it's a small branch, then I'm not that freaked out, but this branch is more than 1 meter long ok~!

I was lucky that I walked past the 'accident zone' 1 or 2 seconds earlier. I cant imagine where will I be if that tree branch fell directly on me. According to Sue, the branch FELL VERTICALLY!!! OMGosh, that's the scary part.

I wonder, if the branch fell on me, and i died, would anyone care?

And the creepy thing is, this morning a much bigger branch fell right in front two of the shadows when they went to buy breakfast. definitely much, much, much bigger branch in diameter. luckily, they stop and talk and then the branch fell.

Ok this is like, super creepy... what is the odd of TWO branches falling RIGHT IN FRONT of you in TWO separate incidents??

Thank YOU God, I never walked so fast, but today I kinda walked faster than usual, I don't know why too. Thank You, Thank You :D

New toy

2010-06-14T15:08:00.001+08:00

hehe my new toy.. dont know how to rotate it tho... turn ur head to ur left 90degrees lah
:D

nice or ugly?

I've been home for 37 hours

2010-06-12T00:25:00.002+08:00

just a short update!

I did a lil changes to my layout. Is this better than the previous one? I find it difficult for me to read some of the words on the previous template. :D

Yor, as of now, I have been locked at home for... 37 hours.

Still got 48 more hours to go.. OMGosh what if i rot or mushrooms grow?

Maybe I'll head to uni tml morning to kill time. Maybe.

my first part time job

2010-06-11T12:33:00.003+08:00

Hello people!!!

I've always wanted to change my blog layout but I was either too busy or too lazy or I don't know where to get nice blog layouts. Viola, my prayers are answered when I log into blogger this morning. (hahah i know after 12pm is like afternoon, but to me its morning cause i just woke up okeh?)

I totally L O V E this layout!! Hehe talking bout over excited-ness. There's like soooo many others that I liked too, but I only have ONE blog and ONE blog means ONE layout. so yeah,... next time then :D :D :D

But i'm not happy with the header tho...

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Hehe, the main reason for this post.

To share my FIRST ever working experience!!

Ya ya, you must be thinking, "Spoilt brat, never worked before in her life, like so big deal, cheh work only mah, need to show off anot?"

I'd say, "You don't like isit? at the top there for big red [x] u can go there now! :p"

Alright, if you're still here.... Let's move on!!

Last week, my shadow ask me want to work on Wednesday night or not. I said ok cause I got nothing to do. Then she ask me to ask Ying. She said ok too. So set lor... (aiks, so boring-ish)

Okay so Wednesday night, 9th June... We went over to Cineleisure Damansara to work. What work? Karate Kid Premier Screening yo! Hehe, I didn't know there's so many Karate Kid fans out there.

We got there by 6.30pm, had dinner, and then walked up to the cinema, where we were allocated our jobs. My main job for the night is to... Check bags for electronic devices. Kinda scary tho, thought people would scream at us, the bag checkers for delaying their time to the cinema, but all went well. Luckily everything went well :D :D

Then when everyone went into the hall, we went over to the phone collection counter to sit and rest. And when the movie's done, we helped at the phone collection counter. Surprisingly, it was sooooooooo fast weh. We're done in 20 minutes.

And the job ends at 12.15am. Reach home only at 2am.

my first job, as the security for Karate Kid Premier.

hehehe damn funny.

toy story 3!!

its woody and buzz lightyear.

am i too old for this movie?

i grow up with disney movies worrrrrr...

Yesterday when i mentioned that i wanted to watch Toy Story 3,

Jing was like, "How old are you ah?"

"Kenot isit?"

we so smart went to park the car over in Ikea.

by the time we finish work, some of the lights are off, and mine was the only car left.

luckily i wasnt walking over alone weh, so damn scary-ish.

First time working wor, of course must camwhore mahhhh.

medium snippets

2010-06-09T02:58:00.003+08:00

Hello!! I was in the middle of completing a post, and suddenly everything's gone. I was directed to a dark blue page that says "Aw, Snap" and apparently something is wrong with the browser. ya-da ya-da ya-da... closed everything and reload again. Goodbye to previous unposted post.

ps: every paragraph is on diff topic ok. so dun get lost trying to relate. heheheheheh

Okay, just now, I was in the middle of blog-hopping and then I bumped into a post that has my classmate's pictures. He-he. They were doing their experiment the other day and their 'victims' thought they are some bad people who cheats money. Hehe, so random. Don't know whether should I say blog world is so small, or this is just purely "oh-so-random" moment. Oh well, this is something that psychology students have to face, because we do experiments quite often and many times, we have to do it in public. But of courselah, kenot make public announcement that we're doing experiment, if not how to get natural result ha?

People (especially girls), if you have make-up on, no matter how mininal/light is it, please remember to remove it once you are home. No matter how tempting is the bed or how busy are you at the moment. I came home today, dead tired and I facebook-ed, then had a few hours sleep, and then i woke up, facebook, dinner at 12am, and then fb more, then only i remember that i had not removed bbcream at all! ahhhhh~~ plus i have kind of sensitive skin. and now, I have some red patches on the left side of my face, and its now itchy at the forehead, the cheeks, and at the corner of the mouth. sighs.

Reminder to self: Next time, dun hiao go put bbcream/foundation for no reason.

Ps: In Tze's dictionary, make-up means bbcream/foundation.

My sleep cycle is going thru a period of difficulties. It started with one night, i stayed on till nearly 4am. I had class next day, yes. And then, the same thing happen the next day, and before i know it, i sleep at 3.30am - 4am everyday. Last two days, with only 3 hours sleep per night somemore. And I take super long afternoon naps. Like today, slept like 4 - 5 hours in the afternoon. I need to tune back my sleep cycle ahhhhhh... But I sense that it is impossible at the moment because exam's coming soon. And being a last minute person like me, susah lah~~

I'm thinking, maybe after my course(which im slowly drifting apart from, now) maybe i should go learn some basic make-up techniques. just for fun and to learn something. if you think that all girls knows abt make-up, you are so damn wrong. im worst than some guys. the learning thing wud be something that im curious in, and would like to know more about. thinking only lah...

I am also thinking, maybe i should go to Korea, and learn Korean. or China, to learn Chinese. or Hong Kong, to learn Cantonese. or Japan, to learn Japanese. Should I? Of course it's not now lah, it'll be after graduation.

I've gone thru IO for the second time. As in, the whole entire syllabus. And, I sTILL DUN GET IT! FML, if I F A I L this paper once more, im out of psych for no good. why lah in this world got this kind of subject de?

i suddenly thought of why i did not update my blog for so long. before this. because i emo. so emo that, i can listen to a song and tears come pouring down. sometimes, it happens everyday. sometimes, a few times in a week. sometimes, once a week. but it happens. and, even when im driving. of course, i can see the road, no matter how emo, i dont want to die and safety comes first. i wear glasses so people wont see the tears. anyway, it got better, thats why im back here posting again. i dun care if anyone reads my blog. its my personal reference for the future. maybe i lost my memory or something, then i can refer here. LOL.

Ohhhhh, something stupid happened today in uni. Me and sue went to the lift. and then before i got in, the door closed in front of me, so every1 went in, and me alone outside. SWT. the door opened again and i see people trying to hold their laugh. LOL true enough, once i came off, they were laughing. >.<

if u feel bored reading my blog, i know. im bored with the way i write too. but being a boring person, i cant write it un-bored-ly. writings reflect a person. i always belief that. different people writes differently.

went to church last sunday. for a talk on God and Sex. I realise, i need to throw away my shy-ness and quiet-ness. because i only know 1 person there. lucky shadow went with me or else, i'll die a horrible social death.

presentation today. not happy with the performance. i dun fear presentation that much anymore. but i just cant speak fluently. and i dont stand straight naturally. so i'm alrd stuck this way. unless i go correct my bones posture or smtg. LOL.

just a distraction from this boring-ness. click here to see burgers.

different

2010-06-07T03:37:00.000+08:00

you and i have different beliefs, views, opinions etc.

we live in a diverse community. we grow up here. we lived long enough to understand how to respect and give space to one another.

so be it. why argue? what's the use of debating over something so un-debate-able?

let's forget it and move on. and let's not question my beliefs.

the comeback post

2010-06-06T00:17:00.001+08:00

I think I lost the will to write. Well, writing. It's the purpose of this blog right? Initially it wasn't about the pictures, but now that I'm taking more pictures than I used to, I think I've gotten kinda obsessed with posting only pictures.

Well, haven't been properly updating in months (felt like years tho). I don't know where to start, so let's talk about yesterday and today. Last night, I left uni only at 1am. The gates have already closed... and i think that signifies how late is it already. Blah, this shows how hardworking I am ok? hehe. Yesterday was a Friday, there's no classes on Fridays, but yesterday I have a replacement for the previous Monday's class. It's a 3 hour class and I was wondering what will she do for that 3 hours. I was expecting lecture (Duh!).

Okay, class starts at 1pm, but i went like 11am, reached and waited till 12pm to get lunch and also to see another lecturer. Not happy because I suck again in assignment. Why does Communication seem so difficult? Maybe I took the right path. Maybe I'm not born for Mass Comm (Duh! Obviously lorrrr).

Okay, so i was 10minutes early for class and there's like 4 people in class? Wth, i thought everyone will be absent so i sat in front. Not that i'm complaining. After all, that's like, the one and only place I sat in since Sem1. But alone? I scared.

=.=

Okay, the lecturer discussed the previous tutorial questions and I didnt do it. She's gonna hate me so much for my laziness. Then, we watched movie. Nice one okay, now I want a Hamburger phone.

Quote Juno, "Hold on, I'm on my Hamburger phone." *Proceeds to shake the phone and then continue talking*

hehehehe, Im on my hamburger phone, oh how i wish i get to say that.... it's like, Hellow, I'm talking to you on my Hamburger phone... Yes, it's a Hamburger.... LOL, ok ignore me.. syok sendiri moment kekekek

okay, was at the secluded place in the uni after class to get some work done, and then went to dinner at Ac and then went back again to uni. that's why i stayed till 1am.

So i came back and then u know it's dangerous to be driving in the dark areas, and i decided to use the highway and then i took the wrong turning and end up in ara damansara SWT. lucky i went there before, and i wasnt like freaking out in the middle of nowhere.

reach home 1.30am with the guard questioning me with his very proper english. i was like, "pardon?" for like 3-4 times till he got a lil irritated and then i finally got what he said... "where are u going?" "BACK HOME!"

slept only close to 4am and today, woke up at 10am cause yen yen called me!!!!! got a few missed calls on the Digi, unknown number so i din care much. somemore i come back so late at night, dun bother to call back lah. this morning, the number called again and the girl on the line was saying, do u know who am i... i said no i dont know who are you. hahahahhaha... damn funny she replied, ohhh so u dont know who am i..... swt moment...

btw, its a surprise cause she's in US all this while and to get a call from her is like the last thing i would get. Actually no.... Altho i only know her for like a few months, but she even bothered to call and meet up everytime she's in msia... unlike people that i have known for years and not even overseas...... People like her, not selfish, not looking down on people(she damn smart one ok, get scholarship go overseas), remembers my number!!! (very important, if not how to keep in touch?), is good people... Nais people.... :D

ok i was awake at 10am, till........1pm, 2pm? dont know lah, but i slept arnd that time till 8pm. till i officially woke up. LOL. okay, i have my presentation on tuesday, need to prepare my part and also try to help with the slides if theres any thing i can do, and also, practice x3... i suck in comm skills assignments and i have to use this opp to get a better grade... i aint failing comm skills i dont care. die die also i dun want fail..

and i have a report due this monday ahhhhh.... it's nothing compared to those research report or term paper or report-y report.... so im still.... so ever relaxed... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~

Shadows of the Sun

2010-06-01T13:37:00.006+08:00

A short update- I'm in class now so i cant make a very long post. & hehehhe, i know the title doesnt make any sense..

I still have Gary Chaw Part 1 and 2, Photoshoot for a friend's assignment (that have to wait till she's done with her assignment before i can release the photos), Bagan Datoh photo trip, Taman Tasik Permaisuri & KL & I-City photo trip (walao seems like my life past month is filled with phototrips) and many other randoms that I cant think of now.. But i hope eventually it'll come to me :D and also i need to change the template for the blog.. its a bit too dark, too depressing...

Here's a picture I took on the way back to Sitiawan last weekend.. Please be patient there are lots more to come xD
I just need more time to process those pictures... In the month of May only, i think i took like 900++ photos... ok i shall go back to my quiz now...

mianhe, bloggie

2010-05-15T01:36:00.002+08:00

I'm sorry I abandoned my blog. Sorry, bloggie.
I was in depression for the past few weeks.
I got better, but now the symptoms are coming, again. zZZ
Will post up more pictures soon. :D
So much to post, so little time.

Not that anyone's reading my blog anyway. bleh :P

Kg. Koh

2010-04-26T22:04:00.003+08:00

dont know what to write. i hate it when i have pictures. it's like directing me of what i have to write.

Marina Island in March

2010-04-26T21:46:00.004+08:00

last month, during my semester break, it kinda became my photography week. came back to hometown from kl for two days, then went to ipoh for a couple of days and then went to penang and the days after that are all in sitiawan. met up with old school mates too. they're all now photography-addict. LOL.

one fine day, we went to marina island to take pictures. went there with daphnez, ben, jansen and ming. here are the result of that day.

rocker chic. this is one of my favorite picture.

hehe i love this one too. kinda showed how tall the coconut tress are.

model of the day.
very album cover-ish.

love in the sand.

love how this one turn out.
another one of my favourite.

photographer and model.

the star of the day.

the elephant!

i dont know is this good or bad.

the sun is setting.

gary

2010-04-24T18:32:00.000+08:00

i went to see gary.

its a feeling i cant explain.

sien

2010-04-21T22:57:00.001+08:00

my 1200 words essay is due

this Friday.

and i have not start.

not even a word.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~~~

It's the Climb~

2010-04-19T23:24:00.003+08:00

I know, this blog has not been regularly updated. It's lacking pictures and it's very boring. Seriously, I myself were bore by my own blog. Every time I look at the blog, I don't know what should I do with it. Thinking of changing the theme again, because this one is a bit gloomy, but I have no time. I'm currently procrastinating.

It's not like I have nothing to say, no pictures to post. For the month after Chinese New Year, I have been going out quite regularly for photo session. Problem is, there's too many photo I don't know which one should I post. LOL. We practically finish exploring Sitiawan and there's like no more place to take pictures. zZZ

I went back again last weekend. And this time, we met up with some ex-classmates from high school, it's been 4 years since I met them. They brought us to a 'lombong' in a secluded area and for rock climbing. They call it hiking, I call it rock climbing. We went on Saturday and I'm still aching till today.

Hopefully, there's more nice pictures to come in future. This batch has nothing to shout about. They're pretty normal and not dslr quality.

Here's the pictures. :D

On the way home from KL.

Phail cloud picture.

Finally, we reach Kg. Koh.

The pretty lombong. The scenery there quite nice, but noobs cannot take nice picture.

There's actually a lot dragon flies there.
But they're all babies.

It's the Climb~~
I went 3/4 way up and then I just gave up.
They all went further up.
Because I know if I went up, I wont be able to come down.
I'm afraid of heights.

i love the colour.
It looks like the dino-clou

Empty road.

ohhhh i love this pic.
Somehow mysterious.
On the way to Bidor.

Back to KL.
Long long more to go T__T

Another dream post

2010-04-11T22:40:00.005+08:00

My dream last night and today is both relationship based. I don't know whether the dreams mean anything but it's odd that both dreams i have is so related to each other. Or maybe its not that weird after all. he-he.

The "I" and "me" in the story does not 100% represent the real me. My dream might make a new character without a reason. Just to make it clear. Thank you.

My dream last night.

I was spending time with my best-est guy friend. One day when he was sending me home, I have the urge the ask just hold his hand. I was going to ask whether I could borrow his hand for a while. When i was fighting my conscience on whether or not to ask, and whether or not he will get the wrong message, somehow he brought me to his house. In the dream, he asked me to go into the house first while he park his car. I went in and saw his grandmother and uncle, watching TV. I greeted them and stood at the side of their sofa. No intention whatsoever to sit down, because i thought it would just take a while. Plus, they didn't offer me. :D

Then he went into his room and came out shirtless. His grandma commented that he hasn't been shirtless with a long pants in a very long time (as in, the formal working pants. it was light brown/beach). Then, blah-blah-blah-uninteresting things happen, and i woke up.

And regretted not having the courage to ask him, even in my dream. Ask in dream and getting rejected wont die one mah.

BTW, I don't have a best-est guy friend. This is all fiction.

My dream when I was having a nap.

Apparently, a long one.

Well, basically in this dream, I did something stupid and end up knowing someone twice my age and fell in love with him.

He's someone important and I'm in charge of managing an event. Of course, he's the VIP and at one crucial point, I made my self stand out in a not-so-good way.

Lame random stuff, and I'm not sharing it here.(PS: I think i kinda fell down from a very high place and hurt myself or something. Anyway, I/or someone else, kinda ruined the event and it didn't go on well. It ended half way.)

Alright, somehow after that, I was in his car. I think he's supposed to send me home or something(because i injured myself, doh!). We got to know each other closer and I ended in his home. Random stuff. Discovered that his son is one year younger than me (and is my junior in school!!). SWT!

Then, we went to my home and everyone is there. My mum, grandparents, uncles, aunts. EVERYONE. They didn't say anything bout him (i know they're controlling themselves and are talking behind my back), but when we finished dinner, i showered while he was in the living room watching TV. I kinda signaled him to go somewhere and my mum kinda realized and mumbled, "I don't know what's wrong with you, he's too old for you". Well, mumbled, but it was clear enough for everyone to hear.

And at that time, I kinda told her that there's nothing going on between me and him and he's just another random friend. I was originally planning to go somewhere to hang out, but seeing my mother's response and him being unwell (or too tired) I sent him home.

I think the story kinda end there.

The second dream has more detail, as in.. The first time we held hands, the first time we hug, the first time we cuddled, the first time we share problems (as in talked and the other party listen and responds), blah-blah stuff. And, we didn't talked bout our age at all, till when i asked him on our way to my house. He didn't believe I'm 21 and he didn't tell me his age.

Ok this essay finish.